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OK everyone So i know I don't blog very often but here I am again . I've been feeling very odd emotionally lately. Like happy but very nonchalant at the same time . Here is an update on our lives . Shawn is joining the Air Force. He took his ASVAB and passed woot woot! He's awaiting approval for his tattoo then he can go to meps. Once he gets through meps they stated he'll be in the DEP ( delayed Enlistment Program) until after the baby is born in September. The recruiter stated that he will leave before the holidays . So I am so very happy that my husband will be going into basics because this has been a long journey . Let me start at the beginning . I know this is long But it's my blog so whatever . We met when we were 10 My best friend was his cousin his grandmother watched me. We were separated and then reunited when we were 18. We immediately rekindled our love and began dating. Nothing serious at first just out to dinner and movies blah blah blah . Well we became exclusive with each other and after a year of dating we then got engaged . We were engaged for almost 2 years then he brought up the topic of joining the air force . I completely 110% support him on this . We got married July 16 2010 He went and spoke to a recruiter and found out that since he only had is GED he had to go to college to get 15 credits in order to join the Air Force. So He recently completed 2 semesters of college and February 4th 2011 we found out the day before his 22nd birthday We were surprisingly expecting our first little one Who was conceived on Christmas morning go figure . Well Once he completed the College credits We are married and expecting our little one he went and spoke to the recruiter again and began the process to enlist. Now we are sort of stuck in Limbo waiting for him to go to MEPS . So yes I am sad he will not be here for our babies first holidays but at the same time I need to get used to him being gone for holidays too because being in the service he will get deployed. I am ready for him to go to BMT and tech school so that we can start our journey as a military family and give baby Chaise everything we didn't have. I need more subscribers I feel like when I blog I write to myself . And maybe hopefully If my blog goes well I'm considering starting a vlog on YouTube . There are Army Wives Navy wives and Marine wives who vlog but not really Air Force wives. So that would be interesting. let me know what you think.

just a private moment between me and the computer

So i'm 7 months pregnant . I wake up and it's 91 degrees in the house the air conditioner works but NOONE turned it off . I go to leave i'm forced to stay in the house . I'm called a crazy psycho bitch . I am not happy . I;m tired of hands being put on me . Yeah granted i don't get hit but what's the difference . I'm not suicidal but I no longer want to live . All I ever do is cry anymore . I'm so unhappy. I;m not his family I'm just his wife . If the word wife ever had so many meanings i did not know it . what is a wife . well lets get medieval here a wife is someone who obeys their husband and does the chores but doesn't get the credit . A wife is someone who makes their husband look good and stands quietly in the corner until the guests needs refreshments . his mother father and sister are his family . He gets more excited about a car than he does his own child . He never wanted it in the first place . I'm sorry baby chaise I had to bring you in this world . Outside i'm forced to be perfect But without the risk of sounding like titanic i feel her when she says shes standing in a room full of strangers screaming inside. well eyeballs are monitoring what i write so bye .